Project 4: An emotional response

Talk about some of these projects not being my cup of tea, this topped the rest! I’m not sure if I feature on the autistic spectrum or whether emotion just doesn’t really feature in my art. I appreciate that the course is getting us to try lots of different approaches, but I didn’t start this project having much hope of getting anything out of it. I decided to try the best I could though.

It took me a long while to even figure out the statements to work from until I started to raid the lyrics of my music collection. Once I had these ready, I prepared them at the top of a sketchbook page and took them to a life drawing session. I read the statements to myself and timed around 10 minutes for each drawing. I only managed to get 9 done in the time available.

I smashed through and took the title. I am a champion

I smashed through and took the title. I am a champion

The scratch of that pencil is getting on my nerves

The scratch of that pencil is getting on my nerves

They took it all from me, I can feel my blood boil

They took it all from me, I can feel my blood boil

I've finally woken from a long sleep, I'm ready to jump, to make that blind leap

I’ve finally woken from a long sleep, I’m ready to jump, to make that blind leap

Heartbeat, thumping in my chest, now I've made a break for it I know they'll never rest

Heartbeat, thumping in my chest, now I’ve made a break for it I know they’ll never rest

There's no sensation to compare with this, suspended animation, a state of bliss

There’s no sensation to compare with this, suspended animation, a state of bliss

I get a rush from the fear of getting caught, of recklessness and water

I get a rush from the fear of getting caught, of recklessness and water

I see the sun ahead, I ain't never looking back, all the dreams are coming true as I think of you

I see the sun ahead, I ain’t never looking back, all the dreams are coming true as I think of you

I play computer games instead of changing my life, all the time convincing myself that I will change – tomorrow

I play computer games instead of changing my life, all the time convincing myself that I will change – tomorrow

 

Do any of these drawings convey the emotion of the statement I was reading? Some have an inkling of this, but I don’t think any strong emotions are evident. Part of that comes from myself not being an overtly emotional kind of person. However, the main issue I think I had was the drawing environment. It’s hard to keep a passionate statement in mind and allow it to influence you whilst listening to classical music, with a serene model pose in an environment I am used to being relaxed and calm in. This conflict meant that I also probably thought too much about how my marks might be associated with the emotion rather than feeling the emotion and letting that feeling influence my drawings.

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